Sunday, January 31, 2010

My Peeps!!

As I said in my last blog, I am learning a lot about myself. Threw that there are good times and there are bad times.

The other day I had a bad time, and in it I was thinking, who can I call to make myself feel a little better. Then I realized I have my certain peeps, for certain times, and moods!!

There are the friends I call who will listen to anything and never judge or hold a grudge about who might be making me upset at the time. Then there are the people who will tell it to me straight, and I know they are telling me straight! Some are good listeners, and in turn just let me ramble on and on. Then depending on the situation I call whoever will understand what I am going threw the most. The one's I call when I am having mommy trouble. O the list could go on!! (I am a people person....can you tell??)

So to all of those in my life who I can call, I thank you!! You help me out more then words can say, and more! Thank you for listening, talking me threw it, and just picking up the other end of the phone!!

Friday, January 29, 2010

Twenty Something!

Yes I am still in my twenties, and apparently it is all about finding yourself, who you want to be verses who everyone else is. It is dealing with all the problems you have made yourself in the last twenty years. It is finding out that people come and go, and how to deal with that.

Well yes, I think life is a game of finding yourself over and over again. When a new thing happens, you find yourself all over again. When someone dies you find yourself again. God has been working in me so much lately, that you would think he would be tired already. But if it is to make a better "me" then I am all for it! (kicking and screaming thought)I am like a sponge, I soak up the good and bad of others that I see I want in myself. I always have and that is way I am the odd man out of my family. I am the one who wants to talk about everything, and is loud and (lets just say it) obnoxious. But lately I have just been picking through the things in me that I like or dislike. So I cry one day and think I've got it the next. (makes me feel crazy)

I have had some really great friends and some really good acquaintances. I of course love and give all of my heart, when other tend to guard theirs, so I am always ready to be "great friends" when others (are normal) and think, "this takes time." I am so hesitant lately because I want to make and have close relationships.

I don't know maybe twenties means, you ramble about nothing and think you have it all figured out. Which I of course do not! but I know I am young, and I am enjoying it, I just wanted to write a little about what is going on in my head!

Thursday, January 28, 2010

Three all about me!!

Talon turned three on January 6, and so far I think the twos are easier. Yes it is fun to be able to understand what they want, but now they expect it "right now." O and if you don't give it to them the tears start to flow!

Talon has been able to speak clearly for a long time now. We went threw the "why" stage.(and still going) But now it seems to be "all about me." "we are going to a party for me??, we are buying that for me?, why don't I have one of those.

Also the tantrums, just get worse! He is and always has been a whiner, but now the whine turns into, tears and then a full blown cry, which makes the baby cry, which makes me want to cry!

But all that said, we will get threw it just like the "terrible twos." We will survive on the nights of him running threw the house naked singing "shake your booty," and the hugs we get with his face scrunched up to ours saying "suga bugga." Also on all the smart things he comes up with already to remind us we are doing a great job at this thing called "parenting!"